Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Water Baby!

We have a little water baby! My boy loves, loves, loves to play in water. This extends to all pools of water, great or small (even the dog bowl). The child is plain drawn to water.

I mention this because we went to the water park for the second time yesterday this summer and I have never seen my little boy more excited. He laughed and played and had a blast. Even times when I thought he would get a little scared, he seemed to have fun. We jumped waves in the wave pool, floated down the lazy river, and played in the kiddie areas. (Side note: alot of children who should wear swim diapers weren't! Just pay the extra money, no one wants to get out because someone pooped.)

In some ways, I am not suprised by this development. My son always loved to take baths. From the day his umbilical cord fell off, that kid was in the bathtub. I know that babies don't need baths everyday, but B took them because he seemed to enjoy splashing and kicking in the water so much.

This day at the water park was especially important as it was our only day of "vacation" before J departs on Friday. The memories that we made yesterday will have to fill the 8 long months of separation. There were many times where I caught J watching B playing looking a little misty.

We had a total blast and one worn out baby to prove it!

Monday, August 16, 2010

No Good Luck Navy Day

Ugh. It happened. J will be deploying a month early. He'll be gone for 8 very long months in less than two weeks. I know that he is leaving to do good things, but it still doesn't hurt any less.

He hasn't been able to take any vacation and they work weekends. In fact, he is only getting 3 days off. He is super stressed out and hasn't been able to relax at all at home with the phone ringing constantly from work.

There is so much to be done. Both real life and emotionally. We need to finish up some paper work and some stuff around the house. But, the emotional aspect of it has been eluding us both. I feel like we are both in denial. Like we can't process that this is actually happening. We have tried to talk about it, but it just makes us both so upset that we shut down.

I worry most of all about B. J and B haven't spent that much time together. J and I were living on opposite ends of the country for the first 6 months. Then he had a couple of months at home and then he reported to the ship. So, B hasn't spent that much time around him. I am very worried that B won't remember his father when he comes back. He'll be nearly two years old on his return, but will have spent less than half his life with his dad. I just don't want to see the crushed look on J's face when B has no idea who he is. We have been making videos for B to watch and recording stories, but there is so much more that just can't be captured.

Now, I know in the long run, this will all be fine. B and J will fall back into things as soon as he returns, but the thought of how long away that is is crushing. I just can't even comprehend how these next couple of months will unfold. More on that later.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Not a Great Navy Day

It appears that J's schedule is changing significantly. He may be leaving a whole month earlier (as in a couple of weeks from now) for deployment. It means vacation is off (I'm going to go with my parents instead, it's all paid for), it means that we have no time to spend together (he is currently underway and will only pull in for a few days before leaving). And it means that he is away from home that much longer (they of course won't come home early).

I have to admit, I am super, super bummed out. I have honestly had a tough time keeping it together at work today. I can't help but feeling like we are getting cheated. Generally, there is a stand down period before deployment. However, emergent tasking is over taking that time. We get a couple of days to cram in what we thought we had a month for.

Thankfully, we are well ahead of schedule. We have nearly everything taken care of. The information is all changed, insurance covered, purchases made. But, that time is something that will be sorely missed. And as an officer, I can't help but worry about all the young enlisted that aren't going to be prepared. Those kids who don't know what they need to do to prepare their families. Short notice things like this often don't consider what that means for the 18, 19, 20 years olds that are going through this for their first time.

I know that this is something that we signed up for. It's something that every Navy family will have to deal with during a career. But that logic doesn't make the hurt be any less. Back to being bummed.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Life Pause

Oh my long neglected blog. I have to admit that between work, a 1 year old, and some new developments, blogging hasn't been at the forefront over the past few weeks. Ah well, back on the horse.

Work has just been crazy. The other LT that I work with was pulled to be a Flag Aide (poor guy), so I am now taking on some huge programs that are just plain HARD. I feel like I am in a battle from the second that I walk in the office until I leave. There is just so much to do. I could easily stay 12 hours a day and not keep up, but I know that I need to go home. I am struggling to find a way to stay above water and still have some semblance of home life.

Things have been breezing along at our house. We have been undergoing some major home repairs. Owning a home really isn't fun. We found out that we have some significant rot in our back wall and have to do some major replacements. No fun. J is especially not happy because we just spent a bunch of money on the A/C a couple of months ago and now we are spending another bunch of money on the back of the house. It's very frustrating to have to take on this much maintenance on something that we have only owned for 8 months.

B is changing more and more into a little boy. He is running, jumping, and climbing all over the house. There is not more quiet play. He has learned how to throw a ball for the dogs and spends a great deal of time riling them up and causing general destruction around the house. He is a little tornado. Anytime the child is awake he is on the move! And, generally, everything in his path must be moved, broken, or just disheveled. He is clearly a little boy.

We are also in our 1 month countdown to deployment. Pretty soon, J will be sailing the high seas for 8 long, long months. I have to admit that I am pretty nervous about this. Some pretty big stuff is going to happen while he is gone and I am just not sure if I can do it alone. I know that I have to, but, still, I can't help but feel apprehensive. We have our pre-deployment vacation coming up in a few weeks and I am feeling the pressure to make enough memories to last us 8 months!

So, just a quick update here, but I promise that I will not neglect my blogging duties much longer.